Realisation of midnight

I got too engulfed in my world that I forgot what is out there. I set my boundaries and limited myself to socialise with people. Maybe just because I didn’t want people to bother with my problems. But I have drifted apart from everything I can think of. Evergreen was my life and I can’t look back at it again. I guess staying an introvert does that to you. I am too distracted to focus on my career, my family and my friends. I don’t even know what my dreams are anymore and what makes me happy. I stare at the lights that come from different houses at night from my rooftop thinking that maybe someday, I will shine as bright especially in the dark. Sharing this with anyone won’t make me less empty because people will say that this too shall pass when I know very well that it will not, ever.

“Is someone in the crowd the only thing you really see?
Watching while the world keeps spinning 'round?
Somewhere there's a place where I find who I'm gonna be
A somewhere that's just waiting to be found”

At times like these, a voice sings these lyrics inside my head.